Hurting in Utah

Trish,
I am struggling in my relationship with my husband. Because of the things he has done, I have lost all trust in him. I don't even like to be around him or feel I can talk to him about the way I feel. I'm afraid if I tell him I want a divorce, he will do something stupid. I have remained in this relationship for the past two years because of my kids. I know he senses it. He asks me often if I love him, or if 'I'm in love with him.' I feel I have to say yes just to keep the peace. How do I get out? The relationship is killing me. Hurting in Utah